The Tribulation

I cannot believe that 5 years had already passed and here I am, scrolling through facebook, looking pass through the graduation posts of my batchmates, and wondering about the what ifs of my life.

What if I took a different path? What if I did not choose Physical Therapy? Where would I be standing right now? Although I can’t see myself being in any other place or situation other than where I am standing today.

What if I my mom let me shift to another course 3 yrs ago? I told her I wanted to become a veterinarian. She brushed the idea off and told me to finish the degree I have started. It was a long way. It was hard and I’m still not finished.

What if I didn’t run as the Honored Queen of our Bethel, would everything still be the same? Would I be better? What if I didn’t take the entrance exam in UERM five years ago? Where would my place be?

We don’t really know what is written on our destiny. We only know that we can make changes on what we know today. We can only plan for the future based on the current situation we are in. We may be tested on our faith, in God, and in our self. The most difficult times are the times where we must stay strong and focused to achieve the goal we have. We may have not reached the deadline but it is not a reason to give up. All the same, we are almost there. Our life just needed a little detour as our future needed re-construction.

We may not see it now, but in tomorrow we would realize what today has in store for us. We just have to keep on believing in ourselves, and know that one day, we will also see the view from the top. Success is more than just a piece of paper. Success is more than just a grade. Success is what we will become in the future. We may not understand these things today but someday, it will make sense because “the flower that blooms in adversity is the rarest and beautiful of all.”

Catch Me

You are imperfect. 
You are flawed. 
You’re not a head turner
You don’t look special.

But everytime I see you,
I see a ray of sunlight in a storm
Your face is the first thing I search
In a sea of people.

Everytime I sneak a peek at you,
All I ever see is your face,
smiling back at me
I hear you giggle.

I just hope that you feel the same way
If you only do feel the same,
Let me know because I’m starting to fall
Catch me.

Prisoner Zero has Escaped

I didn’t notice you at first because I was so focused on what’s in plain sight. Then I saw you, at the corner of my eye, I saw you. It struck me and that’s when you started crossing my mind. Seldom and suddenly all the time. I hate you! How could you do that in such short amount of time. I fucking hate you for taking me away from my goal but it wasn’t your fault. This is all on me.

I like you. I FUCKING LIKE YOU. There I said it. Now, what are you going to do?

Worldwide Instameet 12: Manila Leg

Worldwide Instameet is an instagram meet where people from all-over the world gather to meet other people who share the same passion as they do, as I do… that is, INSTAGRAM. Believe me when I tell you that I take my instagram seriously. Well, not really that serious since my feed still sucks. Consistency, HELLO?

Anw, I was able to be part of the Manila leg of WWI12 which happened last Sunday, the 4th of October 2015 in BGC. It was such an awesome experience. I had so much fun meeting people who were up for anything, just to get a good shot. We were advised to be dressed in black tops for this event.

“Dressed in black from head to toe..” (almost)

Anyway, it was an event which lasted for a whole day. Although, it rained, people were still able to make the most out of the wet streets. It was awesome, it was fun, people were still game to do anything for the love of instagram.

I am no good at taking pictures as compared to the other people who joined the instameet, and *ugh!* I so love their feed!!! VERY CONSISTENT. 😦 I wish I had a feed as good as theirs. Anw, here are my not-so-noob-not-so-pro photos

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Here are the other photos I took using my phone which are already uploaded in my instagram account

It's raining and we don't look happy but we are! #TodayIMet

A photo posted by Dasha Mones (@erikadasha) on Oct 3, 2015 at 10:43pm PDT

Photo Walk

A photo posted by Dasha Mones (@erikadasha) on Oct 4, 2015 at 1:04am PDT

This is how you make me feel

I am a spec of dust in the air. I am nobody. I am not heard. I am not seen. I don’t even utter a word. But when I do, when I am finally being honest about what I feel, you want me to stop. You  want me to conceal my feelings. You want me to choke in my own hate and anger. You want me to vanish and return to the person I was before. You want me to be nobody again. You want me to be the spec of dust in the air. Invisible. Unknown. Unseen. Felt not.

Thank you so much for making me feel this way. At least now I know who I am, what I am, and where I stand. I am just a mere person who has proven you nothing. I am nobody who has been such a disappointment but I am also a person, a human being. I have feelings too. Feelings that needs to be let out. Feelings that need not to be concealed. Feelings that need not to be felt.

SOTW: Photograph by Ed Sheeran

I have been listening to this song for the past few days and I think that it’s the most played song on my iTunes as I have been playing it on repeat. It’s actually a surprise since it’s a song from this dimension, from this century. The song is just damn beautiful.

Loving can heal
Loving can mend your soul
And it’s the only thing that I know (know)
I swear it will get easier
Remember that with every piece of ya
And it’s the only thing we take with us when we die