Fake Confidence: Nobody would know what’s up

I woke up to three text messages from a friend at work. I had the Kim Possible beep as my text tone so imagine how I felt waking up. I thought there was some kind of emergency or something.

Anyway, he was asking if I wanted to take this photography job our boss was offering. It was for his son’s birthday party in the afternoon. Turns out that the person he first hired won’t be able to make it. My friend left all his gear at home too that’s why he was asking me.

I had to think about it for a good 30mins. I had this debate in my head weather I should do it or not. The first question that popped into my mind was “Can I do it?”. I was telling myself that my friend won’t ask me to do it if he thinks that I can’t handle it. I was supposed to reply with “do you think I can do it?” but I didn’t. I’m glad I didn’t.

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Stale Coffee

If we were having coffee, we would probably be catching up. Staring at each other, letting the awkwardness fill the silence. We’ll think about something new to do or maybe plan another adventure, somewhere we haven’t been to.

If we were having coffee, maybe we’d be out of town. We’d be driving far far away from the city to catch a good view. It would be by the mountain, by the lake or even by the beach. It wouldn’t really matter as long as I’m with you.

If we were having coffee, I’d spill my coffee on you. Then I’d order another cup, and spill that on you too. But if we were having booze, that would be better too. I’d slap your face while telling you I like you.

I wish we had coffee. Then maybe, just maybe, it would be a different story.

Serially Lost (Part 1)

It was so early and so quiet. The sun was rising and I was just watching. There I was lying in bed, staring out the window wondering, pondering, planning the games I wish to play that day. I was eleven.

The beauty of a brand new morning drove me out of my room. My aunts and my cousins were seated around the dining table joking around, sipping their coffee while feeling the summer morning breeze. I saw you still sleeping so peacefully as I walked out of the house. I headed straight for my bicycle to roam around the street for a while as the mac and cheese was still being cooked.

I headed straight to the field where you used to work very early in the morning. I was supposed to see tall corn crops there, eggplants, and peanuts. I saw tall Kans grass instead. The field was abandoned for quite some time. It was waiting for you to recover. I was also waiting for you to recover. I badly wanted to ride or drive the tractor with you again but it seemed very impossible.

The doctors said that you didn’t have that much time anymore. Everyday, you became weaker and thinner. You were in pain but you didn’t want to take anything anymore. It’s not that you gave up, it was because you were ready but I wasn’t. I headed back home.

Sunbeams were scattered around your face. The birds were singing the sweetest melody I have ever heard. When I reached the door, I stopped. I just stood there. I was surprised.

Day Two: A Room with a View

So for Writing 101’s Day Two challenged, we were tasked to write about a place we wish to be transported. My thoughts are a little bit messy since I’ve always wanted to travel so I can’t really decide where to go. Sorry for the messy writing, and messy thoughts.

Imagine waking up in the morning, hearing the sound of birds chirping, waterfalls and river flowing, the sound of nature, so beautiful, so serene. You get up and out of bed, and then you walk a few steps to your cabin’s balcony inhaling mother nature’s freshest air. There you are standing, appreciating, the big and tall trees that stretches up to the heaven, the animals freely roaming around not giving a fuck, the peacefulness of the world, the simplicity of life.

You walk around greeting your neighbors, the species around you, the birds, the bees, the trees, the plants, every single organism, a happy and pleasant morning. Picture yourself living the simplest life you could imagine.

I’ve always wanted to try and live in the wilderness. I’ve always wanted to be one with nature, to be able to live like the first human being. I’ve always wanted to try living in the rain forest or in the jungle or in remote areas where people need medical help. #OffTheMap

But sometimes, I just wish to be inside my car, driving towards all the direction drawn on my map. I’ve always wanted to travel the world, to travel the universe, to travel through time and space, to see all the culture, the heritage, and to acquire the knowledge of what history has to offer.

There’s always a place we wish we’d rather be, than this life we are stuck in. I just wanted to live a simple and happy life out of this city’s chaos, problems, out of everything. It sounds so unreal, these things which are too impossible to happen. So allow me to choose, even for just a day, to wake up in the warmth, in the protection, in the comfort of your loving arms. Make me feel alive.