Fake Confidence: Nobody would know what’s up

I woke up to three text messages from a friend at work. I had the Kim Possible beep as my text tone so imagine how I felt waking up. I thought there was some kind of emergency or something.

Anyway, he was asking if I wanted to take this photography job our boss was offering. It was for his son’s birthday party in the afternoon. Turns out that the person he first hired won’t be able to make it. My friend left all his gear at home too that’s why he was asking me.

I had to think about it for a good 30mins. I had this debate in my head weather I should do it or not. The first question that popped into my mind was “Can I do it?”. I was telling myself that my friend won’t ask me to do it if he thinks that I can’t handle it. I was supposed to reply with “do you think I can do it?” but I didn’t. I’m glad I didn’t.

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Worldwide Instameet 12: Manila Leg

Worldwide Instameet is an instagram meet where people from all-over the world gather to meet other people who share the same passion as they do, as I do… that is, INSTAGRAM. Believe me when I tell you that I take my instagram seriously. Well, not really that serious since my feed still sucks. Consistency, HELLO?

Anw, I was able to be part of the Manila leg of WWI12 which happened last Sunday, the 4th of October 2015 in BGC. It was such an awesome experience. I had so much fun meeting people who were up for anything, just to get a good shot. We were advised to be dressed in black tops for this event.

“Dressed in black from head to toe..” (almost)

Anyway, it was an event which lasted for a whole day. Although, it rained, people were still able to make the most out of the wet streets. It was awesome, it was fun, people were still game to do anything for the love of instagram.

I am no good at taking pictures as compared to the other people who joined the instameet, and *ugh!* I so love their feed!!! VERY CONSISTENT. 😦 I wish I had a feed as good as theirs. Anw, here are my not-so-noob-not-so-pro photos

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Here are the other photos I took using my phone which are already uploaded in my instagram account

It's raining and we don't look happy but we are! #TodayIMet

A photo posted by Dasha Mones (@erikadasha) on Oct 3, 2015 at 10:43pm PDT

Photo Walk

A photo posted by Dasha Mones (@erikadasha) on Oct 4, 2015 at 1:04am PDT

Not a match

Have you ever felt that you were part of a group but not of a circle? Because I did. For so long I did. I tried to get in it but I guess I just can’t. It’s not like it’s some kind of elite social group that needs social status or what but I guess we weren’t just clicking. I tried to get along. I tried and it worked out until lately something just happened.

People stared, people started throwing blank faces, people stopped talking. I never knew how or why it happened but one thing’s for sure, I felt okay. I felt good. I felt that for once in my life, I am finally in the light. I am not a shadow anymore.

This isn’t the first time that this situation happened. It happened before so I wasn’t really surprised that it’s happening again. For a month, someone stopped talking to me without any given reason. I tried to reach out but all I got was a silent treatment. I don’t even know what I did wrong or what I said wrong. It’s just that one day I got the cold shoulder. I tried to ask people so that I could gather some clarity regarding the matter but I got nothing. Even the people around us didn’t know the reason. They asked and even told me that maybe it was my fault. It was something I did but I can’t recall doing anything stupid because the last thing I wanted to do was to hurt a friend.

I’m tired of trying to get in that circle. I have finally given up. I should feel safe, I should feel happy when I’m around them. I should also choose my own happiness. I should stop living behind the shadow. So today, I will.

Friends are important to me. You just can’t imagine how.

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